I wonder what it would be like if I had everything I ever wanted.
I wonder what it would be like if everything I daydreamed about were true; if I had a first-name-basis friendship with the people who changed my life.
I wonder what it would be like to spend time with them outside of class, and show affection towards them without things being weird.
I wonder how it would feel to be supported in my dreams and goals; I wonder what a healthy relationship is.
I wonder what my future looks like, even though it scares the hell out of me.
I wonder all these things, but some I may never know.