I never thought The Twilight Saga would be relevant to me again. I was content with my indifference; I even wrote a post about it.
I’d always loved Alice for her spunk and immediate acceptance of Bella. And of course, she can see the future. How cool is that?
Recently, however, things have changed. I’ve actually come to identify with her. We know that Alice’s backstory is a mental institution. I’m in the process of rewriting some fanfic about why – I looked back at it, and I didn’t like the way it was going. Anyway, here’s my theory: she could see the future, but no one believed her. She couldn’t handle that, and it literally broke her.
Since graduating college, I’ve struggled with what I should focus on. What’s more important: finding a job, or looking at graduate schools? However, people seem to think that going to grad school depends on whether it will make finding a job easier on the other side of it.
Although the details have changed a bit, I’ve always known what I want to be when I grow up: a journalist and an author. I also see myself as a college professor someday. What makes me mad is that people seem to completely disregard this and suggest other options instead.
I’m trying to keep an open mind about everything, but it’s hard when I start daydreaming and I see exactly where I want to be. What’s wrong with that? Why do people feel the need to suggest other things?
It makes me feel so alone. It makes me feel like I’m a weirdo and my daydreams must be fake or something. I don’t like doubting myself just because of what other people think; it’s horrible.
My friends don’t seem to think I’ve got the wrong idea, so that makes me feel better. Yes, things may change, but until they do I just have to keep my eye on my own prize. Alice Cullen gives me comfort that I’m not the only person this happens to.