Remember the movie Click with Adam Sandler and probably some other people I can’t think of right now? Well, if you don’t, it was about a guy who had a remote that let him fast forward through the things in life that he didn’t want to deal with. But it backfired. In the end, he realized he’d never truly lived. When he encounters the remote again, he doesn’t touch it.
Most of the time, I wish time would slow down. I wish I could control more things in my life. But right now I wish I had a fast forward button like Adam Sandler. I wish I could fast forward to the part where I already have my dream job, etc. It would save me from a lot of what I’m going through right now.
Right now, I’m almost three months fresh out of college, and I have no idea what I’m doing. Looking for jobs is a lot more overwhelming than I thought it would be. I knew it was going to come with anxiety, so I just wanted to relax for a bit and enjoy my summer. Maybe go on vacation or something. But there’s no rest for the weary.
My confidence, already fragile from college, seems to be on life support sometimes these days. If I were already on my way towards my dream job and other goals, I’d have an easier time shutting out the people who doubt me. But because I’m just starting out, I can’t seem to do that. I have a hard time rolling with the punches.
I know everybody has to start somewhere, but this emotional baggage is getting ridiculous.