Growing up, I didn’t really have a security blanket. I can’t remember ever needing one.
As I got older though, that changed. Because of anxiety and other issues that contribute to said anxiety, I latch onto anything that can keep me sane.
This is especially true of Worldwide by my friend Jacqueline E. Smith. It’s the third book in the BoyBand series. I was itching to read it, so I brought it to school with me. When I looked in the back of it, I didn’t expect what I saw – I found my name in the acknowledgements:
It really meant a lot to me because it showed me that my blogging is paying off. People actually read it. And it showed my that Jackie appreciates our friendship as much as I do.
The timing of it couldn’t be more perfect, either. While I was reading Worldwide, I was also experiencing a severe episode of depression that seemed to come out of nowhere. Worldwide was the thing that kept me going. I took it with me everywhere. And I mean EVERYWHERE. Even when I finished reading it, if I didn’t have it with me during class, I felt even more anxious and lost than I already was.
Seeing my name in the acknowledgements reminded me that I mattered. That I was worth something. That the random bout of depression wouldn’t last forever. I can’t thank Jackie enough for that.