Veritaserum

I should probably start this by explaining that “veritaserum” is the potion that forces people to tell the truth in Harry Potter.

Once upon a time, I wanted that.  I wanted to know what people thought of me, to see if they cared about me as much as I cared about them.

But now that my anxiety has increased, I don’t think I would want to know what people think.  It’s too much pressure.  And if I let what other people think of me rule my life, I’ll never get anywhere, because I’ll always be trying to please people.  I won’t be living my own life.

And I’m pretty sure that the people I look up to don’t hate me.  Sure, I may have made mistakes, but that doesn’t mean they stop believing in me, right?

So, while it may be interesting at first, I think veritaserum – knowing everything people thought about me – would backfire in the long run.  I can’t dwell on things that have already happened.  I need to focus on me.  Because at the end of the day, this is my life, and I’m in control of it.  I need to focus on me and where I want to be in the future.  If I worry about what other people think, I’ll just be holding myself back.
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