If I were Dauntless

Yes, the title of this post is a reference to the Divergent series by Veronica Roth.

Because I think Dauntless is the faction I would be in if the world was suddenly futuristic Chicago.  The faction is essentially the police force ford the rest of the city, and they’re really cool.  It looks like a lot of fun.

But I digress.  I guess what I’m trying to say is that my life would be very different if I were mostly fearless.  I say mostly because even the people who choose Dauntless are afraid of something – usually multiple things.  Fear is inevitable; it’s how we’ve evolved to survive.  Dauntless just hides it really well.

And frankly, I envy them.  They don’t let anything get in their way.  And if they are nervous or scared, they are able to separate themselves from it and do what needs to be done.

Meanwhile, I’m over here trying to get my anxiety under control.  Sometimes, it gets so bad that my anxiety about one little thing spills over into everything else.  Way to increase my productivity!

Yeah, not really.  Most of the time, I’m able to keep it at bay, but I still have my moments.  And I really hate it.  I hate worrying about so many things.  I hate being afraid of the unknown.  If I were in Dauntless, I would be able to compartmentalize everything more effectively and focus on the task at hand, no matter what else might be going on in my life at the moment.

Dauntless might look like a bunch of borderline thugs with guns who aren’t afraid to mess things up.  But really, they’re just good at not letting things get personal, good at dissociating themselves from a situation to an extent.  And that’s why they’re my favorite faction.  I want to be them when I grow up.
Fearless Fantasies

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