Meditation Baseline

My New Year’s Resolution – other than blogging every day this year – is to meditate every day.  I tried to do this last year, but unfortunately, I fell off the wagon.

At first, I thought I would be okay without it.  And, my stubborn self, wanted to wait until the 2018 so I could try and get back on the every-day track with a fresh start.

And then I realized how much I needed it.  Wednesday night, I had a nervous breakdown.  An event that probably could have been prevented if I had been meditating.  Meditation isn’t a cure-all like it seemed to be at first.  However, it does provide me with somewhat of a buffer for the voice in my head.  My guilt-track.  Like a guilt-trip, only it’s nonstop chatter at the most inconvenient times.  It makes me doubt myself and wonder if I’m good enough, etc.  I wish I could take it out of my brain and kill it.

That’s not to say it’s completely bad.  It comes back to bite me a lot – as in would have, could have, should have.  That part isn’t necessarily fun either, but it does help me learn from my mistakes.

At least I hope it will.  But that, my friends, is a whole other story.

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