If you were to ask me “How are you?” I would probably say “Okay” or “Good”. But that’s just on the surface.
When I first graduated from college, it was a bittersweet feeling. I didn’t want to leave, but I felt that I was ready for the next step, whatever that would be.
Lately however, I’ve been stuck in a spiral, similar to what Aza Holmes has to deal with in John Green’s latest novel Turtles All the Way Down. My “guilt track” won’t shut up. It constantly reminds me of my mistakes. And it’s holding me back from achieving my goals and unlocking my full potential.
But maybe being reminded is a good thing. Maybe it means I won’t make the same mistakes again. I just wish it weren’t a seemly constant occurrence for me. But that’s where meditation comes in.
If I had a chance to go back and correct all the mistakes I’ve made it my life, I definitely would. But I can’t. I can only hope to learn from them.