In the superficial sense, “no pain, no gain” simply means that if you don’t feel pain, you won’t gain anything.
But I don’t think that definition includes mental struggles or hardship. College, as you probably already know, was a challenge for me. But I survived. And I still got a lot out of it.
Without my struggles, I wouldn’t have realized how much Spanish meant to me. I could’ve run away from it. Maybe I should have. But I didn’t. Something deep down inside me told me I wasn’t done with Spanish. I still believed in myself. And I still do. I love Spanish.
But I’m still struggling. I know exactly what I want to do with my life, but lately people have been making me question it. And I’m the queen of overthinking. I wish I could accurately articulate why I want the things I want. But I feel like the reasons I have for liking the things I like and wanting the things I want are superficial and will only give my doubters more reason to doubt.
Because, in all honesty, I can’t really put feelings into words. For example, whenever I watch the news or work on my Spanish fluency, something just feels right. Yes, I do have various role models, but what’s wrong with that? It’s the feeling that my role models give me that reminds me of what I want to do. Is that so wrong? I don’t think so.
I didn’t think it would be so hard mentally to keep my eye on the prize.