A few weeks ago, I had a nervous breakdown. It was bad; I couldn’t sleep at all.
However, in the days after that night, I got so much clarity that I couldn’t even process all of it. I remembered the reasons why I want to do the things I want – and they’re not stupid at all. Secondly, I got a name for how I’ve been feeling since my college graduation: an existential crisis. I found a video on YouTube that described and explained all my feelings.
I still have a lot of stuff to think through. “Clarity” isn’t the same as “knowing how to move forward”. I can work on this with my life coach, now that I’m not bouncing back and forth between two choices.
It’s so weird. Before now, my life was pretty much planned out, and I did what was expected of me. Now that I’m an “adult” who can “make my own decisions”, I have absolutely no idea what to do. I guess it’s good that I have goals though. I’d be even more lost if I didn’t.