My life so far can be summed up by
It was the best of times, it was the worst of times
It’s been full of highs and lows. I don’t regret it at all. Sure, I regret some of the decisions I’ve made a long the way, but on the whole, my life has been pretty good to me.
I’ve been able to find things I’m passionate about and role models who support them. Role models without whom I would probably be worse off than I am. I literally can’t thank them enough. I wrote some of my college professors thank-you notes, and the love and respect were definitely reciprocated. They really appreciated what I said. And believe me – I bared my soul. To an extent, of course. I made sure things didn’t sound weird.
It’s different now that I’ve graduated. I’ve never felt so alone. I’ve never felt so far away from my support system. I know they’re only an email (or Facebook post) away, but that still feels like light years. Because really, they have other people to care about. New students to inspire. I don’t want to take that away from them, but I’d be lying if I said I didn’t miss them.
It would be easier if I could rely on my family, but unfortunately, I feel like I can’t. I can only rely on myself and the inspiration of my role models. And it would do me good to remember that the doubt I’m feeling now won’t last forever.