Why I’m Surprised

In the post about my follower count, I said something like “I’m actually somewhat surprised.”  Well, there’s a reason for that.  And I have to come clean.

I feel like I’ve gotten away from reviewing things as of late.  I know I have.  But it’s because I’ve been struggling with my self-esteem.  I have moments of clarity when my goals make sense to me, but those are far too rare for my liking, and they’re usually accompanied by a bucket of tears.

What I’m trying to say is, I didn’t mean for this blog to turn into “oh woe is me”.  But I’ve been fixating on things, and it’s hard for me to stop.  During my moments of clarity, I know exactly what I need to work on to get to where I want to be.  But most of the moments as of late, this blog has turned into a sounding board of sorts.  Because when I write things down, I’m they magically make sense again.  I’m able to see the reasons why I like the things I do.  And those reasons don’t sound stupid.

Thanks for bearing with me.

 

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