In the post about my follower count, I said something like “I’m actually somewhat surprised.” Well, there’s a reason for that. And I have to come clean.
I feel like I’ve gotten away from reviewing things as of late. I know I have. But it’s because I’ve been struggling with my self-esteem. I have moments of clarity when my goals make sense to me, but those are far too rare for my liking, and they’re usually accompanied by a bucket of tears.
What I’m trying to say is, I didn’t mean for this blog to turn into “oh woe is me”. But I’ve been fixating on things, and it’s hard for me to stop. During my moments of clarity, I know exactly what I need to work on to get to where I want to be. But most of the moments as of late, this blog has turned into a sounding board of sorts. Because when I write things down, I’m they magically make sense again. I’m able to see the reasons why I like the things I do. And those reasons don’t sound stupid.
Thanks for bearing with me.