I spent years caring so deeply that I couldn’t do anything. I cared so deeply about trying to be excellent, trying to live up to an inner standard that I was crippled as a result.
In the post about my follower count, I said something like “I’m actually somewhat surprised.” Well, there’s a reason for that. And I have to come clean.
I always have my phone and my headphones with me.
A few weeks ago, I had a nervous breakdown. It was bad; I couldn’t sleep at all.
I don’t like taking pictures. I don’t think I ever have.
Back in December, I had my first ever cavity filled.
Yes, the title of this post is a reference to the Divergent series by Veronica Roth.
If I could turn back time
If I could find a way
I’d take back those words that’ve hurt you, you’d stay
If I could reach the stars, I’d give ’em all to you
Then you’d love me, love me, liked you used to do.
When I first read 10% Happier by Dan Harris, I was still a bit skeptical about the concept of meditation. It was intriguing, but I didn’t see how I could practically fit it into my life. School was my main priority. It wasn’t until I crashed and burned my junior year that I knew I needed to do something. My anxiety was too much. So, I reread the book and actually started a meditation practice. And it’s really helped me manage my anxiety. It’s nice to know that I can do something to just take a timeout. I’ve managed to work up to 20 minutes daily, and I’m hoping to increase that time. I’ve made a new year’s resolution to meditate every day. I think it’s a resolution I’ll keep.