Writing my feelings (and for myself)


Believe me, I wish my bedroom were actually this nice. Someday it will be. But I digress. I actually want to talk about my blog and how I feel it has improved.

There was a recent period of time where I used the blog to vent. Pretty much all the time. I don’t think I went too far in revealing myself or anything, but looking back, I’m really embarrassed.

While I wrote about how I was feeling (and trying not to turn it into a pity party), I wasn’t really dealing with the root of the problem. I was trying to ease the symptoms, because I honestly didn’t know what the root of the problem was. I just knew I was stuck in a cycle that I couldn’t seem to break. There were days that I didn’t want to do anything, least of all eat or take a shower. All I could do was stay in bed and try to get some sleep.

Thankfully, I am no longer in that cycle. Granted, I’m still dealing with some of it, but I’m able to write and process my thoughts in a notebook. And I’ve been able to at least temporarily break the cycle and keep it from bleeding into my blog again now that I’ve learned a thing or two about narcissism.

I’m really proud of myself that I’ve been able to post on a consistent basis and get back to what this blog is about – books, movies, and occasionally breaking down an article in order to write my own thoughts about the subject.

I really hope you find my new content interesting. I know it’s something I can be proud of.

For my eyes only

I’ve also decided that not everything I write has to go on this blog. I’m really proud of the fan fiction I’ve been working on lately, but for some reason, it feels personal. Not that it would do anyone harm if I did post it, it’s just my version of a guilty pleasure. Way more fun – not to mention real – than reality TV, in my opinion.


Writing Difficulties

The blog post I planned for today was gonna be pretty awesome, if I do say so myself.


The Mathison Misunderstanding

For some reason, at dinner last night, my mother and I happened upon the subject of Homeland – one of my favorite TV shows that I haven’t watched in ages for reason I can’t even describe.

Daily Prompt

How I Stay Calm

When I first read 10% Happier by Dan Harris, I was still a bit skeptical about the concept of meditation.  It was intriguing, but I didn’t see how I could practically fit it into my life. School was my main priority.  It wasn’t until I crashed and burned my junior year that I knew I needed to do something.  My anxiety was too much.  So, I reread the book and actually started a meditation practice.  And it’s really helped me manage my anxiety.  It’s nice to know that I can do something to just take a timeout.  I’ve managed to work up to 20 minutes daily, and I’m hoping to increase that time.  I’ve made a new year’s resolution to meditate every day.  I think it’s a resolution I’ll keep.

via Daily Prompt: Calm


The Courage of Zayn Malik and Why Strong Men Cry

It’s simple. Health > Career. People need to realize that …

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by Huma Munshi  

On the face of it Zayn Malik leaving One Direction shouldn’t really resonate. At 34 years old, I am past fawning over boy bands. Even when I should have been gripped by Take That fever, I had a lot more affinity with the music of old codgers like Bob Dylan and Leonard Cohen. However, there is something about Zayn that does appeal. In part, it is the fact that he’s that rarest of species: an Asian boy band member in the British mainstream – and he is pretty striking at that.

15th NRJ Music Awards - Red Carpet Arrivals

But it was his recent departure from One Direction, which finally struck a chord. He laid bare the impact mental distress can have on a person. Having experienced significant mental ill-health myself, his honesty mattered. The workplace is a much cited cause of mental ill-health: you have to navigate difficult workplace relationships…

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